Healthier Me.

Lately, I've been trying to eat a little better. I have become obsessed with some things because of this...

Almond Milk. I think soy milk tastes okay, but Almond milk is sooo much better! I'm a big fan of Almond Breeze's Light Almond Coconut milk. I eat it with my cereal and I have been making super yummy (and low calorie) smoothies with it!

Chobani. I wasn't a fan of Greek Yogurt until I tried Chobani fruit on the bottom Greek yogurt. The fruit seriously makes this yogurt to die for. They have so many flavors - your typical blueberry(my fave), strawberry, raspberry, pineapple, and cherry. But then they have some crazy flavors - blood orange, passion fruit, pomegranate, and lemon. I cannot recommend this yogurt enough!

Mini Sweet Peppers. Everyone at work has been bringing these in with their lunches and I decided to be a copycat and buy some myself. They are a really good and healthy snack. I love them!

Low Fat Cottage Cheese. I have always liked cottage cheese, but now I throw in a handful of grape tomatoes and it makes my cottage cheese 10x better. My husband thinks I am weird, but I don't care, it's delicious.

Egg Salad. I found a low calorie recipe and I have been eating so much egg salad! I can't usually get through a dozen eggs before the expiration date, but since I found this recipe, I've been going through 1/2 dozen a week! I serve this on my new favorite bread (Sara Lee 45 calorie per slice) and this sandwich is only 4 points on Weight Watchers.

Pirates Booty. Best snack that tastes like it should be bad for you, but isn't. This little gem can be found in the organic section and can be pricey, but I have a friend who buys it for me at the commissary every week. It's puffed corn & rice and tastes like popcorn. Yum!

Low Fat String Cheese. Need I say more? It's cheese.

Anyway, I'm not really trying to lose weight, but I have lost 5lbs since trying to be healthier. I still enjoy my processed foods and I definitely and not healthy 24/7, but I really am trying to eat more fruits. I eat a lot of veggies, but I am not a fruit person. Hope everyone is doing well!

Holiday Weight.

In 2006, I lost 30 pounds, but gained back 20 of them. In 2007, I was determined to lose those 20 pounds, and then some - and I did, about 75 pounds. After that weight loss, I gained about 5 pounds back and I try to stay around that weight. I used to be a compulsive weigh-er, stepping on my scale every morning. It was torture, since my digital scale shows ounces as well as pounds and weight fluctuates. Anyway, I didn't have my scale from June until we got our stuff 2 weeks ago - and I hadn't stepped on my scale. Not that I was scared to, but I'd gone 5 months without it and judging my weight strictly on how I felt. Meaning when I ate bad, I felt heavier and when I ate good, I felt better. I do a loose version of Weight Watchers - the program I used to lose all the weight. Basically I'll go a week of splurging a few times, and then 2 weeks strictly on Weight Watchers. I am trying to maintain, not lose anymore weight (as of right now).

But today I decided to weigh myself. I heard on the radio this morning that people tend to weigh themselves less during the holidays, for fear of what the scale might say, I guess. So I decided to not be afraid of the scale (even though Thanksgiving was just a few days ago). So I pulled out the scale and weighed myself. I gained 1 pound since the last time I weighed myself, which had to have been in May or June. But I was really proud of myself. I used to rely on that thing to validate my good feelings about myself - but now I know I don't need a scale to tell me how I'm doing. I can do it on my own! As a former fat girl, keeping the weight off for more than a year, this is a huge accomplishment.

I plan to not weigh myself for a while, because I don't need to. Not anymore.

I Wish I looked Like...

This is another blog prompted by The Imagination Prompt Generator.

There is really no perfect person who I'd like to look like, but there are people who I'd take bits and pieces from to form the perfect person.

Hair
I would love to have long, thick hair like Kim Kardashian. Granted, I have the long part down, but my hair is not nearly as
pretty or well taken care of,
like Kim's.

Face
I love pretty much everything about Megan Fox's face. She has gorgeous eyes, perfect teeth, and nice facial structure.

Body
By far, Shakira has one of the best bodies. She's not to skinnyand not too big. Most importantly, she has a nice butt which is probably the only thing sexy about my own body.

The reality is, I'll never look like any of these women. I wish I were happier with myself, but I'm not. I still have a lot to work on with my physical self, and my own perception of myself. I hate to be the girl who complains about how she looks or how much weight she's gained, but I am that girl. Sometimes I look in the mirror and still see that size 20, 220 pound girl looking back at me. 75 pounds and 6 sizes smaller, I still struggle with my looks and my 'new' body. I wish I could see myself as my husband sees me.