But He's Not Black.

If you didn't know, I am an in an interracial relationship. I am Caucasian and my husband is Hispanic (Dominican). I've been told by people that we're not really an interracial couple because he's not black. While I am glad that line of race is beginning to blur in this country, it bothers me that people don't think my husband and I face the same difficulties as other interracial couples. We get stared at in public too. Our children will be bi-racial too, having to learn my American culture and his Spanish culture, and probably be bi-lingual too since the majority of my husbands family doesn't speak english. They will struggle with trying to fit in with both races. They will never be looked at as white. They will never be 'hispanic enough' to fit in with that culture.

So yes, he's not black. But he's not white either.

How Come...

This is just a question about blogger, if anyone could answer, I'd appreciate it.

Can you write private blogs?

The reason I ask is because I am subscribed to people and I can read part of their blogs on on my subscription list, but when I click on the title of the blog, it doesn't exist. So what is up with that?

Blast From the Past.

So on facebook, I'm in the Austin Peay network obviously, but I decided to join the United States Army network, since I am a veteran. Anyway, I filled out the info and they sent the confirmation e-mail to my ako (army email) account, and voila, I am now a part of that network. You're probably wondering why the hell I am telling you this, well I actually have a point.
I hadn't logged into my ako account in a very long time, so I had forgotten what I even had in there. I guess I had saved almost every email ever received to that account, going back to 2002 when I first opened it. Anyway, it was so funny reading all these old emails. Most of them were from when I was 18 or 19 -- and boy did I really sound like an 18 year old in these e-mails!
I read ones I had sent while I was in Iraq....to my boyfriend. Yes, when I deployed, I had a boyfriend who was in the Air Force and stationed in England. I actually met him while I was in AIT. We started dating about a month before I deployed & tried to keep it together. But alone with our own struggles, I was starting to fall for someone else, someone who I ended up marrying :) I broke up with Michael because of the distance, but somehow, he knew I loved Jenry. He knew I loved Jenry before I knew I loved Jenry. It was just interesting to read back on these emails and remember the struggle I was having between being faithful and following my heart. Ultimately, my heart won out.
Another intersting tidbit? Jenry first told me he loved me on May 26, 2003. I remember him saying it, but I never could've told you the date. Maybe I'm stupid, but I loved going back and reading stuff from my past & realizing how much growing up I've done!

Busy, Busy, Busy!

Ahh, I finally have a moment to relax! I spent all weekend helping a friend with some kitchen renovations, but now that it's done, I'm back to my hermit crab self, haha. I'm not totally a hermit crab, but I would consider myself a homebody. It's not that I am anti-social or anything, I just prefer to be comfortable in my home, with my surroundings. Anyone is welcome to stop over if they wish :] Anyway, I know not many people read this, but if happen to look at my profile and see a blog called '23 Things', it's a blog I have to do for my educational technology course. It's a rather boring blog, but feel free to comment if you feel the urge.
Anyways, this week was a pretty good week! If you didn't know, I love hockey & the Nashville Predators are my team. I'm a fairly new fan and met two of the players earlier this year. Well, on Tuesday, two other players came up to Clarksville to do meet with fans at the Front Page Deli. I got to meet Shea Weber & Rich Peverly. They were both really nice, and rather handsome men :] So even though the week ended with a different sport low (my Mets lost to the Braves Sunday), it still started out pretty good.
Well, I hope to write more this week, until then, I'll leave you with the pictures from Tuesday.

Me with Shea Weber

Me with Rich Peverley

Eating Disorders.

As sad as it is, eating disorders intrigue me. Whether it's anorexia, bulimia, or even compulsive overeating, I am very curious about the people with these disorders and their daily life. Using the google blog search, I've come across many blogs which encourage girls to be anorexic or bulimic, often called 'Pro Ana/Mia' sites. I find this extremely sad. I know the people running these sites are obviously sick themselves, but I don't know how they could wish the hardships of these diseases upon anyone. These people should be encouraging people to seek help, the help they wish they were strong enough to seek.
It's scary to think of the girl in the video. I think most women have body image distortion to some degree, but for it to be that extreme is so scary. I once watched a video on youtube of a women showing what she eats when she binges. Binging happens often for both anorexics and bulimics, both ending in purging of the consumed food. The amount of food she ate made me sick to my stomach. It was probably more than I could eat in two or three days.
It's a sad, sad illness with seemingly no end in sight for the women facing it.

Weighing Me Down.

There is this really cool site called My Virtual Model where you can create an image to show what your body will look like at certain weights. Here's mine.

This is what I look liked when I weighed 220 pounds:

This is what I look like at my current weight:

And this is what I will look like at my goal weight:

There is also another site called Weight View where you can send in a photo and they will edit the photo to show you what you will look like at a specified weight, which is pretty neat.

This is the photo I submitted at 149 pounds:

And this is what they sent me back, with a 30 pound weight loss:

Just thought I'd share some cool weight loss related things I had found on the web.

I want a dog.

I'm not really a dog person, but my husband is. He is a fan of larger breeds, like Huskies and German Shepherds. While I like those kinds of dogs, these are the kinds of dogs I like best.

Miniature Siberian Huskies
(seated next to a normal Husky.)

Welsh Corgi
Jack Russell Terrier
Pomeranian

Chances are that we won't be getting a dog anytime soon, we already have three cats. And when the time does come for us to get one, I'm pretty certain my husband will be choosing the breed since almost all the pets we've gotten together were ones I picked out. A girl can dream can't she?

Rain, Rain

What is it about rain that makes you want to lay in bed all day watching old movies with your significant other? Most days I don't like rain; it makes me feel gloomy, tired, and cold. But today, I loved the rain. It matched my mood to a tee. Perhaps it's because I did want to lay in bed all day, but knew it wasn't a possibility. I'm not sure of the reasoning, but today I didn't want the rain to end. When I saw it was coming down harder as the day went on, it only comforted me more. Tomorrow, I am ready for the sun to shine down on me, but this day, I needed the rain to fall around me.